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22 May 2006 @ 07:30 pm
TIRED by JackHawksmoor
Rating: ADULT - Warnings: none

Something happened to Kirk. Something that kind of ...changes one or two things.

"I'll have no part in this." Bones insisted, jabbing a finger in Spock's direction. "If you honestly think Jim Kirk could be capable of-"

"I am quite aware," Spock said with deadly seriousness," of what James T. Kirk is capable of."


James T. Kirk took a moment to swallow that, then leaned back and fired off.

So i'm way over my darkfic phase, the fics that make you feel like slitting your throught afterwards because it's all so pointless and there's no happiness in the world, at least not for you. And it's really hard to write a fic such as this for Kirk/Spock because in order to stick to the characters the least bit you have to make it bearable, at least. I'm glad "Tired" is one of those successfully managing a good balance. It's a tough job to make Kirk sound that bitter and stinging, so much that you almost don't get him anymore. Almost. The shining leading figure never gets lost entirely, he just turns a fair way less... bright.

Jack Hawksmoor's style is ...interesting. You don't get very much of the mission they're on, just the pieces you actually need to follow the plot. More or less. Because, what really happened to Kirk? I can only guess. (Let me know about your theory.)

Also, i like the intense expressiveness of the character's mimic and gestures. I'd think the author is an excellent observer of body language.

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Cleave To Thy Master by Ainzfern
Rating: NC-17 (M/M - Violence - NON CONS)

What a wonderful title! Agent Sloan veers into the mirror universe to neutralize a potential threat to the Federation - First Officer Garak. In order to get close enough he has to initiate a ...special relationship with him.

"The power behind this Terok Nor had to be brought down. A dangerous mission with little chance of success.

Sloan had volunteered. He was very loyal."

Reminded me of how much i like Sloan, because he's one of the shady heroes that kinda lost the right path. Here he is again the smart secret agent that drives his loyalty to the Federation to the point of total self-abandonment. Or does he? However, in his way he acts in the best interests of the Federation; whether he uses the right tools or not is very arguable, but isn't it strange that the outcome is always to the Federations advantage? An intellectual dilemma.

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04 May 2006 @ 12:58 am
Recognition - Evolution - Sensation - Education by Anne Carr

Master Qui-Gon Jinn and Padawan Kenobi only meet when the latter one is about twenty and Padawan of someone who totally is not Qui-Gon (not even Yoda). Both very alive and even having fun in their lives without knowing the other.

The utter absence of angst in this fic without it being too mushy is extremely refreshing. (Not that i do not like angsty fics!) OK, there's actually one attempt at angst after the obligatory misunderstanding, but it's so cute it doesn't count. : )

One scene kinda reminded me of the first Rude Person "fic" Ricker and Troy Fuck by Rude Person (aka varoneeka): just wild, unrestricted, noisy fucking, that is - on a very weird level - still kinda in-character. Don't levitate fast-moving things at me! 'Twas just a feeling (but it made me laugh very hard. on my balcony.)

So, that was a good hour of my day.

" With his robe swung back as he carried the boy, Qui-Gon felt that gossip had been correct about one thing. Seeing Obi-Wan Kenobi walk away had to be one of the most lovely sights in this star system.

Amused at himself, he went on his way. He did not realize that most of the Padawans, and almost all of the students watched him go, thinking exactly the same thing about Master Jinn.

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27 February 2006 @ 09:36 pm
This is a truly uncomfortable train of thought but i feel like i have to say something about the thing that moved within my mind the whole day now. I'm talking about rape in fanfics; or what's euphemistically described as non-consensual sex and its variations. I can't shake off a certain feeling of uneasiness whenever i note a code that implies non-onsensual sex (happens not very often cause there are limits, you know). But mostly these scenes are either non-graphic and/or the characters have quite a way of dealing with it, so mostly i'm ok with it. Because, let's face it, when you read darkfic, you have to reckon anything. And it's not the blinding torment i read that stuff for (and anyone who does should stay the hell away from me!) but the way the characters are dealing with it.

So, i was desperately wondering why the freeking hell Mimor VI by Jesmihr (K/S) irritated me so much.

Mimor VI is a thoughout nice and well-written fic. If not for chapter 10 or so (sorry, if i'm spoiling anyone here). You guess what's happening in this chapter, don't you. (not saying, though, that Kirk or Spock theirselves were raped). Till then it was all very nice and went pretty smooth and then suddenly, Woooosh! Welcome to the world of dark dark themes. But don't you worry! It's only for 1 or 2 chapters. After that it's going to be very shiny again.

I mean, uargh! let me suffer, let me be in pain, gimme all the good things that darken up my time. But please, do it right! Intentionally. Not like 'oh wouldn't it be really badbadbad if Kirk and Spock had to deal with it, so that Kirk had to comfort Spock and heal him with his magic powers within a few days and one or two melds?' That's inacceptable and the issue of rape is way too serious for dealing with it so lightly. Besides, most hurt/comfort plots manage without. And they do it well.

There are a bunch of brilliant fics that deal with non- or semi-consensual sex in one way or another to various extents. All of them focus on the circumstances and ramifications of violence resp the rather unpleasant kinds of sexuality in a highly sophisticated way. Self-explanatory, that stuff is all NC-17. Please don't read if you're underage.

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I am well aware that this rec list isn't at all (or only to a small extent) about non- or semi-consensual sex. I've been mixing up things pretty much, what with throwing together the many shades of non-con-sex with the hard way of doing it. So, yeah, live with it. I guess that means that there aren't that much recommandable fics, after all, that deal with that kind of stuff. Or that i don't know them. Please tell me should be the latter one the case.

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26 February 2006 @ 08:12 pm
Uh. Shock! There i went muttering about the lack of opportunities to discuss my various creative needs and completely ignored the fact that there indeed are other ways of being creative than mine.. Singing and playing an instrument, for example. Sorry, Sugar! Will have to make sure that next time you play something for me. I'm sure it'll be great!

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26 February 2006 @ 05:30 am
Why not posting some more of my icons? It's long overdue. Besides, it's not like i'm doing anything with them apart from staring at them every now and then, congratulation myself for making a lucky shot from time to time. And forcing my non-creative (read: not overly engaged in doing any art - except the art of living, of course!) friends to look at them. If only i could make them watch from less than 3 metres.

It's a shame, really. David Gerrold (who wrote the adorable and famous episode of Star Trek:TOS "Trouble With Tribbles" and luckily described his adventures of doing so in a book of the same name - available here - and from which i'm quoting) once put it that way:

"What I wanted to do was create.
[...] Producers are special people. [...] People who are bringing something into existence that did not exist before. These are special people because these are the only people in the world who are creating wealth. Everybody else is either performing the service of bringing that wealth to the consumer, or making a living selling it to him.
[...] And that’s what I wanted to do—produce. Create. Bring something new into existence."

Somehow i understand that desire. It's not a whim or a creative way of killing time. It's a need like eating and sleeping. What's coming out of it is a totally different question, however :D Nevertheless, part of that need is, admittedly, to show other people (and be praised, if possible....).

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24 February 2006 @ 01:17 am
Aaaaww! Poor Spike. What's he doing without Buffy? Without her all's stupid. Tree stupid. Buffy nice.

Erm, actually the other day i couldn't help but buy this Sheepworld thingy for my very dear Sugar (who's anything but a sheep!) because Sheep's world is so cute and so infantile, what i *love*! You know, that little beaten sheep with very little vocabulary and colours in its world.

Somehow, that reminded me of Spike's very focused world. I go and pass the time... with someone. But that's all it is, it's time. 'Cause, God help me Buffy, it's still all about you. Ooo, ::sigh::

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23 February 2006 @ 11:46 pm
If anything's wrong, do something about it.... Always look on the bright side of life....Smile. Tomorow wil be worse...

Any clue where i'm going at? No? Let me put it that way: I have to remind myself that there indeed are some high-quality g/b fics out there; else i'm going to cry and i'm fairly ugly when i do that. So, let's collect what we've got by now.

"Selections from Julian Bashir’s CV" by Ellen Fremedon -- the title says it all. J.Bashir is a busy doctor and explorer. And he let's others know. Drabble. PG.

"Prelude to a Kiss" by Caroline Crane -- the first (longer) G/B fic I ever read and I’m still clapping my shoulder for choosing so wisely. It suffers somewhat from overly musing - brooding, one could say - but provides some enlightening character insights for starters and anybody who loves character dissections. PG-13.

"Symmetry Series" by Terrie Drummonds -- no one can possibly summarize this work in a proper way within a few words, imo. I'll try anyway. The alternates (from once again another mirror verse) of some of our well-known heroes strand at DS9. By mirroring the relationships in a slighly different way they set some interesting developements in motion. Tenderly this fic stretches its antennas toward the character's most guarded points; explores the fascinating 'what-ifs' and keeps you hanging on every single word.. Plus, well-elaborated plot! It's a long-fic, baby! R.

"Return" by Hannah R.H. -- mmmh, complex-y goodness. After Garak's return from the romulan-cardassian attack on the Founder's planet (and his torturing Odo) Julian Bashir is restless. Did he knew him so little? Trust is a delicate issue with any cardassian. But with this one it's a painful thing.

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21 February 2006 @ 03:28 am
It appears to be somewhat difficult task to get a decent Garak/Bashir fanfic nowadays. Sure my statement is only based on my experiences of the last 5 days or so, because about 5 days ago this pairing hit me. And it hit me hard.

I noticed a certain need for cuteness on the part of many authors with the other couples i'm into. Understandable, too, since the writers don't write fanfiction for no reason. As do the readers read them (me included). But with these two it's the first time it bothers me; on account of Garak primarily.

I mean, he's such an multi-layered character, subtle (caballing, intriguing, scheming, calculating, emotion-guarding, eloquent.......) and extremely conscious of any power dynamics (and an intimate relationship is one). Let alone a man with an evil past who didn't refuse to torture a friend of Bashir's in a desperate attempt to regain his former power!

In short: it seems cruel to me to reduce him to a mere fool for love: harmless, without a past and with no future. You know, like tormenting a man just for the fun of it (oh the simple joys of pain...).

I'm very sad, and frustrated. Because i want my Garak. The real one; who's a love-fool on his own terms.

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13 January 2006 @ 01:22 am
Lazy as i am i rely on other people's work for my fanart; very friendly people who share with parasetical folks like me. And as a lazy but totally and throughout nice person i say: credits whom credits are due! (And i can only imagine how much time and nerves these adorable people had invested in doing the screencaps and stuff). Besides, maybe the one or another of you guys can use these links for her own fanart.


Several tv-shows (like Buffy, Angel, Firefly) and movies are capped here:

Freeze Frame Network
Screencap Paradise
. . d a y d r e a m i n g . .

If you haven't found what you're looking for (on the search for some wicked commercials, huh?) you most certainly find it here:

firefly screencaps (as zip files, whoo-hoo!)
Can't Take the Sky

Star Trek (primarily TOS)
Trek 5.com
and cap_it, of course
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